Don't you love it when you are freaking yourself out about something, and then a realization comes and smacks you in the face? I was freaking out about not getting a piece done today (this was happening as I was working on this painting, it wasn't like I was miles away from my studio!) I'm tired. I had a long day with back-to-back meetings. I was seriously thinking about saying screw it, but I thought that since I have a few people holding me accountable, I have to do a piece. So I start working, and all I wanted to do was eat dinner, cuddle with my dog and watch an episode of Hawaii Five-0. Then the big, ol' realization came along and smacked me right in the kisser. I'm doing an abstract piece, who the hell can say, "that's not finished!"? I laughed out loud, lightened up, and kept working until I hit a point where I felt I could honestly say I thought it was finished.
We all put expectations on ourselves that aren't realistic, and that can squelch creativity. Today, I realized I had done that with this challenge. I never said that each day of the challenge, I was going to complete a masterpiece. These are sketches, for lack of a better term, and they are abstract, so what the heck! I realized that I could go back to this piece and add to it if I am so moved, or because I work in wax, I can subtract from it as well. With encaustic, you can scrap back and remove things very quickly.
So for today, I'm going to say, laugh and have fun!
In gratitude, Karen